My
thought process: I can catch up on The 90 Day Bible Challenge later when there
is less to do. I kept telling my self that with so much to do I would not be
able to focus on the reading. Why read for an hour when my spirit is not calm?
I would not get anything out of the reading with my mind elsewhere, but where
was my heart?
My
head my have been in the clouds. I might have been multitasking – doing too
many things at once. Where was my heart for God?
Was
skipping my time with God helpful? Did I accomplish more? Did it bring me peace
and comfort?
Lamentations
3
22 Because of the LORD's great
love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, The LORD is
my portion; therefore I will wait for him.
25 The LORD is good to those
whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.
My
repentance: God reminded me that he is my first love. I should seek him first
in all things.
I
know that with three boys I am homeschooling and a household to manage, my feet
hit the ground running in the morning. If I do not put God first, I can never
fit him in later.
Yesterday
morning when I awoke at 5 a.m., I did my Bible reading. My motivation was not
to get on track with Bible in 90 Days: Day 60 but I wanted to spend time with my God.
What He taught and reminded me that morning was in my quiet personal space with
Him, He creates a God and me bubble. He calms my spirit for the day and grants
me grace and peace.
In recommitting my first things to Him,
I was able to see my heart for God and my natural desire to read His word
throughout the day. With that came the added blessing of reading for about two
hours at the doctor’s office yesterday.
It
is amazing how the things that need to be done are always accomplished. Let us
all remember to never put God second.
I
am still one day behind on the Bible in 90 days but the reason i HEARTED this was to
start back reading through my Bible on a regular basis.
